fat face, downward spiral continues

Well, it's official. My face is fat. My weight gain has shown up on my face. I noticed it yesterday in the bathroom at work, the bathroom I normally don't visit (I usually use a bathroom closer to my desk). Different lighting, I don't know. All I know is I looked in the mirror and said, "Whoa! I'm fat! Crap." I sure hope I'm pregnant or something because this is ridiculous! They say you're only supposed to gain 5 pounds  in your first trimester. I'm actually very scared for myself the day I'm pregnant. I'm so scared I'll be the gal who gains 70 pounds. I'm so missing my Aderall!!! I'm in a downward spiral and don't know how to get out. God I'm depressing, but this is actually getting scary. Not life threatening scary, but fat scary. I feel like there's no hope. I don't want to get dressed in the morning or go to work.