Well, this is just great. I had to result to wearing sweatpants today because my jeans are too tight . . . the jeans I consider my 'fat pants'. I'm depressed. I have PCOS and I constantly battle between binge eating, then a round of depression, then starvation diet. I don't know why I do this to myself and I don't know how to really get out of it. Normally and in the past, I would begin to exercise like crazy and that would eventually pull me out of it. The unfortunate thing is right now I'm unable to workout due to an basal cell carcinoma just being removed on my stomach and if I workout and stretch the internal stitches, then I have a scar that could be mistaken for a c-section scar, and I don't have kids! I'm even refusing to go to dinner with my husband tonight to celebrate the first time he told me he loves because I don't want the temptation of food. (I forgot to mention the binge of donuts I went on this morning due to being in a class all day).
So . . . I"m going to drag my butt up to our gym and do an hour of walking on the treadmill and continue my night of not eating. Wish me luck!
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